The Last Road

Living every day like it's the last… because one day, it will be.

Silence is the Enemy

Posted by Rystefn on June 1, 2009

I know sometimes I write about horrible things, but today there’s a difference: the horrible thing in question is really happening. Sometimes it’s easy for us to forget, but we live in a world full of horrors to which most of us turn a blind eye. We close our eyes and pretend it isn’t happening in the hopes that it will go away… or at least that we won’t have to think about it. By doing this, we give the perpetrators of such crimes the power to continue. There are brave people in this world, though, who refuse to be silent. Who stand up and make noise, and donate money to helping the victims. There are those who question how much good raising awareness can do, and they make some valid points, but the simple fact is this – so long as people remain unaware, evil people can keep committing these atrocities. Silence is the Enemy


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Lady Ilenya

Posted by Rystefn on May 29, 2009

So I think I may have created a character even nastier than Gaelyn… this is a short excerpt from something I’ve been writing.
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All Good Things

Posted by Rystefn on April 27, 2009

Given that my readership has most likely fallen away to zero at this point, there’s little point in making this post, I think. Still, here it is.

If you’re wondering where I’ve been this last month and change, it will likely come as no surprise that my time has been steadily invested in being around a certain attractive woman. Sadly, it seems this chapter of my life is coming to a close. She the usual meaningless speech about how it’s not me, it’s her, complained about my inability to read her mind and magically know what she wants at any given time… the usual things. She pretended she wasn’t seeing someone else, and I pretended to believe her, then I left so she could get ready for her date tonight.

She said we could give it another try later, or somesuch, insisting the she loves me still. She asked me wait, knowing what has happened in my life. Knowing how long I tortured myself in the vain hope that my wife would come back, she asked me to wait. Once, I was in love so deeply that when the woman in question suggested I move across the country to live with her near her family, I quit my job. I saw her to the airport, when she traveled ahead to make things ready. She said she would call when it was time for me to follow. I waited in my apartment, with all my belongings in boxes, until the police had to come and forcibly evict me. I still haven’t unpacked most of it. You may not have known this, but she did. Knowing the torment I’ve been through (yes, that I put myself through, but still), she asked me to wait again. It was the most intentionally hurtful thing I’ve ever been told in a breakup.

Do you know what the worst part is? Much as she made me happy, and as much as I enjoyed spending time with her, and as alone as I feel tonight – I felt just as alone last night. It hurts that she’s gone, but not so much more than it hurt when we were together.

I guess I never really started caring again after I lost my Dove. I just starting faking it better… even to myself.

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Sin of the Week: Gluttony

Posted by Rystefn on March 20, 2009

As before, following the concept from Perhaps We Learned Something. This one is, I think, rather less awesome then the previous two, but there’s only so much I can do with the subject at hand. Read the rest of this entry »

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Sin of the Week: Wrath

Posted by Rystefn on March 6, 2009

Once again, for the Sin of the Week over at Perhaps We Learned Something, this week’s essay is on my least favorite – wrath. Very probably safe for work, this week, but possibly more about me than you wanted to know.
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Sin of the Week: Lust

Posted by Rystefn on March 3, 2009

So I thought I should post something in response to the Sin of the Week anti-Lent doodad over at Perhaps we learned something. This week, the sin is lust, possibly my favorite virtue… what? It’s a vice? Pfft. Says you…

Where was I? Oh yes, lust. Anyone who knows me could easily assume I have tons of lust-oriented stories, and mostly, they’d be right. It’s not really my style to make such things public unless the other person or people in question have already done so. Many people don’t appreciate that sort of thing, and I’d rather not betray their trust that way. Luckily for you, I can be fairly certain that all the people involved in this particular story don’t mind.

If you’re familiar with JanieBelle and Kate, I don’t need to tell you that this is going to be a touch NSFW…
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Rough Patch

Posted by Rystefn on February 19, 2009

Yeah, I know, I disappeared for so long I’ve probably got exactly zero people reading these days. In the interest of trying to not sound like some whiney emo kid, let’s just say the last several weeks sucked hard, and I’ll try to go back to posting semi-regularly in the near future.

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Transitional Forms

Posted by Rystefn on January 14, 2009

Yeah, I made a video last night, but I think this one says it so much more succinctly.

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I don’t have a solution

Posted by Rystefn on January 8, 2009

Somewhat longer than I expected, and now I’m back. During my absence, I came across something that is frustrating, but not surprising: even though it was utterly destroyed in the courts, the concept of Intelligent Design has a strong foothold in the moderate Christian camp. Not ID as the creators mean it, but the phrase itself, which is certainly what they intended when they called it that. To the average person, the phrase “intelligent design” means nothing more than guided/directed evolution, or even deism. The idea of a designer that set the universal constants in place and then didn’t touch anything in 14 billion years falls under the heading of ID to the lay person. No wonder it’s so hard to fight.

The fundamentalists and YECs have been allowed to choose the battlefield and to arrange it such that it appears to the people in the middle that they are on the Creationists side, and act as though that were the case.Much as they have also pitched the idea to so many that evolution = atheism, and the the Big Bang = atheism, and that evolution = the Big Bang.

Ever wonder why it’s so hard to convince people of these basic facts of the universe? That’s why. Because they’ve been primed to reject the idea out of hand without so much as listening to it.

Of course, anyone can list off problems, how about some solutions? Frankly, I haven’t got any. All we can do is the best we can, and hope we’re making some headway. Education is the key, but with so many actively avoiding learning the facts, it’s a long, hard road to teach it.

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Chrifsmas Time

Posted by Rystefn on December 23, 2008

So I have a friend I’ve known for a long time (coming up on fifteen years now, actually). She’s one of those people who has a good instinctive ability to assess people’s motivations and mindstates, which I’m sure we’ve all encountered from time to time among the people we know. She’s privvy to my periodic bouts of depression, and indeed most of the problems I’ve had in my life. She told me once, not so long ago, that pretty much the only I could ever do to surprise her would be to die on a day that wasn’t the 24th or 25th of December.

Thinking on that, I decided that I should say: I’ll probably disappear until after the New Year. Don’t worry about me. I’ll be back around in a week and a half or so.

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